I can’t stand pain. Mostly emotional pain hits me way harder than it used to (before), I can’t stand to see even an actor in extreme duress. I actually physically recoil from it. I always thought of myself as being empathetic and compassionate but now. I actually ache internally when I witness any pain, it rips open my scabbed and scarred emotions and lays them raw and bare to the ache. I thought because my eyes would tear up, and I was a soft touch for (almost) anyone to hit up for money that made me sympathetic. It didn’t. This new way of feeling alongside those who are also in pain, just might.