So a little shy of a month ago, I decided it might be of benefit for me to go on meds. This is something of an understatement, as it had become really hellish inside my head. I was crying nearly all the time, and very very pissy. I was on the edge of biting someone’s head off almost all the time. It was really really really, really BAD.
So, I took out a bottle of Prozac I had leftover from a couple years ago,and decided to take it while I was waiting for an appointment with a new shrink. Within days I started to feel better.
I am now able to do more, with less pain (both physical and mental) than I have in YEARS. I’ve actually started working out a little. *Side note* I was REALLY REALLY out of shape. My new goal is to lose 35 lbs, and get back to what I weighed before my husband died. I think it is feasible. Right now I’m working on dropping another 10 lbs by this time next month. I think (hope) I can reach this goal, but so far I’m feeling great about the 2 lbs I’ve lost so far…and the fact that I CAN do 20 squats now. I know, it’s not that many, but..it’s 19 more than I used to could. Also, I can do pushups. I can do the girly kind best, but I can manage 5 of the “normal” ones. I’m doing the 30 day ab challenge. Today is day 5. I’m off now to do it before bed. Progress is being made.